What one thing you wish you could go back and tell yourself as a kid……?
One thing that could change how you lived your life?
Wanna know what mine would be……….
Well I was watching so you think you can dance over the weekend which reminded me again of how much I love dance. I love watching it, doing it, everything about it. Sometimes it just moves me to tears and dancing around the living room with my 4 year old son brings so much joy……Dance and music really touch me at a deeper level.....
In fact in an alternate universe my dream would be to be a performer on stage, dancing, singing and allowing the creative flow of spirit to move through me……
Growing up I loved to dance and sing. I took ballet lessons and was in the school choir and even had a solo one year. I played lots of sports, basketball, netball and tennis and LOVED moving my body and being active.
Looking back though I feel sadness because when I look at it all honestly as much as I loved it all, I spent soooooooooooooooo much time stressing about whether I was GOOD ENOUGH at it all.
Constantly comparing myself to everyone else in my class or team and always feeling like I was less than them.
This idea that I wasn’t as good as others was reinforced by my quite horrible ballet teacher….Let’s just say I was not her favorite because I had short hair and loved to play other sports. So apparently I just wasn’t good enough in her eyes even though I performed just as well as my friends in all my exams….
Then there was the time I missed out on a solo and I was devastated and some netball mum’s who I felt like no matter how hard I tried I could just never win their approval…….
But as an adult I know that they were all just a mirror for me, because it was me, who on the inside felt like I wasn’t enough……….
And when I look back and see all the times in my life where I pushed and strived and put in too much effort so I could be enough well it’s kind of sad.
Because in those moments instead of relaxing and enjoying myself, being present and enjoying life, part of me was not 100% there.
So how much of life did I miss out on because I couldn't relax??
So if I could go back and talk to my kid self I would really just want to say RELAX……YOU ARE ENOUGH….
YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH……
In fact YOU ARE AWESOME.....
Just enjoy yourself. You don’t have to be the best. Stop worrying about messing up or fitting in or being as good as others…..
JUST STOP and RELAX and know that you’re a divine child of God.
I see this reflected back to me in the present day in the eyes of my step son who is in the midst of those awkward teenage years where life is all about fitting in, and I wish for him the same.
But as I so well know, nothing I say to him can make a difference. But I can make a difference in the way that I show up in the world. In how I show up for myself and for him and for my family from a place of knowing and BEING ENOUGH.
So lovely FB friends, my invitation to you this week……..
Do you feel ENOUGH? Are there areas in your life where you are still striving, pushing or putting in too much effort so you feel enough…..
What if this week you stopped and allowed yourself to relax, be in the moment and just enjoy life??????
AND if you don’t feel like you know how to do that on your own.....
Contact me and we can set up a complimentary discovery session where you can explore what might be underneath your feelings of not being enough and we can vision what life we be like and what you could create living from a place of knowing and feeling and BEING ENOUGH..